Thursday, January 22, 2009

Getting it Back...

I'm not a jealous person. I don't have a big house or fancy car. I don't belong to any country clubs and I only buy name brand clothing when it's on huge sale.
But I'm blessed beyond words. I have a wonderful husband who sacrifices and works hard so that I can stay home and raise our family. I have five beautiful, healthy children whom I adore. I even have two bonus stepchildren! I have all that I need and some things that are wants. I have a strong marriage and a wonderful life.
I recognize these blessings, and many more, and they are enough to keep me from being jealous of others.

But there's this one thing....

This one thing that isn't really a thing....

This one area of weakness that creeps in every so often....


I want....

To be here...on stage again.

I totally photoshopped myself into some shows I'd love to do:This is me as the Witch in "Into the Woods".

This is me as Mary Poppins.

This is me as Fantine in "Les Miserables".
And, of course, this is me as Elphaba in "Wicked".

I long to sing again. Oh, I sang at a graveside service recently, which was nice, but I'm talking about performing. I long to be on the stage, sweating in the lights, secretly sticking my gum in my cheek while I sing, being silly when the audience can't see. I miss that part of me.
Last night my dear hubby, whom, if you recall, is also a performer at heart, and I had a really great visit about some things. I think that this part of us has gotten lost over the years.

We're getting it back.
Even if it's only within our home and with our kids, we're getting it back. We've made a new resolution a few weeks late. To get it back.
I'm excited!!





6 comments:

Jeanette said...

What a nicely written post. I've found it's more difficult than it seems for us mothers to stay true to some parts of ourselves. Sometimes I feel something is missing in my life-- It's not a job, I wouldn't feel fulfilled simply by making money--but something creative. I'm hoping that blogging can be that outlet for me. Good luck Ashley

Cheryl said...

I saw my little sister-in-law in Into the Woods last year and it reminded me of you in H.S. I think it's so fun you have a husband that loves the stage too. Has any of it rubbed off on your kids? Stage prodigies in the making?

Ashley said...

My kids love to sing and put on plays for us at home, but we have yet to really involve them in the theater. I'd like to, though. I think at least the older ones have got it...

Kristy said...

Be happy you had it once. I always wanted to, but got married and had kids, so I never even experienced what I wanted to do! You can look back, and know you've done it already!

Gale said...

cute post!! i am sure that you will perform again....when you love something that much there is no stopping.

Mimi said...

That's hilarious! Great photoshop skills!

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